this is now my blog im taking it over intil its partial owner comes to manage its needs. runnu g and hiding is something i never thought i would see happen. i am 5 foot 135pounds. what could i possibly do to a man of ur size to hurt you?in theory say you can run and hide forever. what is that going to do to and for you? the memories of what has happened and the burden of unresolved actions will forever be inside you. u know u can not run from yourself. and beings you are the most extreme loner i have ever kown i can not imaging what kinds of hell you myust be putting urself through. imm sure u can keep up whatever appearance u are currently living with for a while but those walls will at some point come crashing down. i have not known you for a few years now but the person i lived with all those years has to be in there somewhere. that person and this current person both owe me massive amounts of answers. i will not let your soul go until i am satisified in the questions i have. the lies and deciete werte unimaginable.i never saw any of this coming. i never thought any of this to be a posibility. i held you when you could not hold urself i am the one that eerything on the line to make sure that u had as much as u could posibbly need. the things i have come to realize are things i would have thought would never come out of you. do u realize how much u have left behind unanswered? the people we knew together have these crazy conseptions and i can not even attemtp to sway their outlandish ideas. this double life u helld its left so much distruction. and the only soltion i can come up with is to not divorce u. im not letting u off like that. im not going to continue to be the person that makes everything happen. u want to be free u stand up and answer for what you have done. as soon as you do that the papers are ready to go. i have them i also have ur future in my hands. i can go on like thin=s forever. you know mee and you know full on i will not be one to made to look as foolish as i do at the moment. even if you were to file the papers good luck with the out come being one where you simply walk away unscathed. i have made great strides in safe gaurding myself tis time. every day i go unanswered is another day i willl come up with something that will ttake us both to places that wold break a normal human. you are not as stron as i am i do not think u can hold out longer than i can.